From: clrclady
Date: Sat Aug 28 23:44:04 EDT 2010
Subject: Deep Longing Poem

Responses andrea: Yes. . . . (8/30/10) Responses (sorted by date) andrea: Yes. . . . (8/30/10) Deep longing still sits there in my soul; How can You comfort me? The question glares at me like a neon light Exposing the bare nakedness and emptiness That lies within this wounded heart I pursued so many souls this week, Poured myself into so many lives, Solved this problem here and there, Trained this thing, taught on that thing, Exhaustedly fell into bed and was kissed by You With a simple scripture or an answered prayer; I longed for real live arms around me, A voice back to me to process my crazy head. We even had one night of extra time You showed me so much in Your word; I struggled to sleep because I messed up my meds; The next day I longed for someone to ask me, To see what was going on with me to prop, Not to just ask a general question That I could easily answer, But for someone to truly explore my depths. A got a hug from a friend which got me through. I got the love of a father to finish up the week And remind me that I am not You to all these, I give more, take care of myself the best I can As the wounded, flawed creature I am. And now I am here, beginning the Sabbath, Our time, left with my longings; To not be sitting here crying, alone, To have a relationship that I can call my own, To be pursued the way I pursue and love. And yet, I am not alone here. You are here as always. I wish You had arms, and hands, and eyes; I wish I could talk to You here in my room Like the disciples talked to Jesus in the upper room. I want to lean on Your breast like John; I want to weep at Your feet like the women, I want You to embrace me like You did the children. I want You to wipe my tears like You will in Heaven.

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From: andrea
Date: Mon Aug 30 10:36:13 EDT 2010
Subject: Yes. . . .