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laynEpoo: thanks (9/1/10)
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laynEpoo: thanks (9/1/10)
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Grief and sudden change in life does wacky things to your soul: emotionally, spiritually, and physically. It is like a sudden regression into a past land. Lucky died a month and 9 days ago and for 10 and a half years before that 2am event whenever I was at home she was by my side, most all the time. I still look for her and tear up. We had a party recently and my first thought was I need to put Lucky in my room so she does not stress out, but there was no Lucky to do that with. I realized today that my life is really, truly amazingly blessed (I have realized that many times before as well) and I was wrestling with God with what was wrong with me that I could not just enjoy it, and He calmly spoke to my heart that I had not let Him comfort me in my loss and loneliness. I have filled my life with all these other things, with business, friends, family, food, and work. When I did touch the loneliness this weekend, I cried and cried and said I was crying because I wanted to be married and have children, but really I am just grieving the loss of a ten year relationship that I have not let God touch. I keep thinking that it is just a dog and I should be fine, but she was so much of my daily leave that that life adjustment is hard. It is like getting a ton of habits ripped away at once and being left with this big void of open space.
I realized today how many sudden life changes we experience both good and bad in our lives and the stress and adjustment that they require. The need to grieve the loss over the plans and expectations that we had that will never be anymore and the need to be comforted by God and not turn to other gods because they cannot heal our wounds. But when we are comforted by God we can than comfort others in their pain and grieve. I have gotten much comfort from God and others and I pray that God will continue to humble me so that I will be useful to comfort others. It reminded me of a dear passage in scripture that I wanted to share.
2 Corinthians 1:3-5
[3] Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ,* the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, [4] who comforts us* in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. [5] For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives,* so also through Christ our comfort overflows. |
