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From: Karen
Date: Fri Jul 22 10:02:14 MST 2005
Subject: Thanks for sharing ;-)

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Suki: Followup (8/6/05)

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Suki: Followup (8/6/05)

I have many of the same thoughts as you, even as I long to be a mom myself.
Boring AND sentimental? I'm already sentimental, baby, and I don't even have mother-hormones. Can I be cool and uncool at the same time? Interesting (in some ways) and tedious and predictable (in others). Yeah, I think that I *am*. Like I'm free, and still under the will of God. That kind of mystical paradox.
"Don't you know that it's the fool who plays it cool by making his world a little colder." - McCartney
Station wagons are the new black ;-)

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From: Suki
Date: Sat Aug  6 05:13:45 MST 2005
Subject: Followup

So once I posted this blog, I found myself much more resolved on the matter. Funny how that happens. I also had a conversation with Eric a few days later where I realized that if I would let go of the idols I hang onto, I'd have a lot of freedom to enjoy what (and who) God is giving me in the moment. My number one idol being what other people think of me. And another that relates being the need to "accomplish" something. Which I would be doing so that other people will think more highly of me. Let go of these, and I can just have a great old time playing with my kids and enjoying the fact that there's space in my station wagon's roomy cargo hold for guitars and strollers alike. In fact, if I let go of these idols, there's no telling what else I might be free to enjoy and walk into in all the different facets of my life.

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